You leaving wasn't the end of the world

I thought it was. that day you left, I thought it was the end of the world. but I eventually stopped crying and I got up off the floor and I woke up the next morning. it was not the end of the world, the sun had not exploded, nor had the continents been swallowed by the ocean.

I thought you leaving was the end of the world, and maybe it was, in a way. you leaving was the end of that world, that world with you and me in it, together. I think that world still exists, just not here. but in this world I got out of bed and chose to wore a blue shirt and shorts and I made myself cereal for breakfast and when I checked my phone and I didn’t have a text from you, it felt like the end of the world all over again.

I cannot tell you how many times it felt like the end of the world, like when I saw your face again and there was a vacant of feeling. I went home that day and I cried so hard I forgot to breathe. but I got up again and washed my face and I took my medicine and I went on with my life because the world doesn’t stop just because you broke my heart. the world doesn’t work that way. if your heart is broken that is your problem and you have to find a way to make your own chest stop burning because the earth is going to keep revolving around the sun and time doesn’t have sympathy for anyone. 
just keep going onward

It's been a year now but when I still hear your name, my heart beats a little faster, all those memories come rushing to my head, my heart sinks and all it could do is ask my mind, "Will I be able to see him again, ever?" And I always hope my heart says yes! But it doesn't, for it knows I have lost him long back. He's gone to a place where I am restricted, he is happy and I am happy too seeing him happy!
But I do spend my nights craving to hear his voice, remembering our song, listening to his favourite songs, reading our messages, reminiscing those times when we were so close.
But when I open my eyes, I realise that was all my past and now I have to live in my present without him, my throat shrinks, it becomes hard to swallow, heart misses a beat, eyes not ready to blink, mind not ready to accept the reality.
I never hope to see you back in my life again because I know there's someone else who's making you more happy and now my heart hurts a little less than it used to or may be am so habituated that it does not aches any more. Days I feel I have learnt to live without but there are nights that makes me go restless.

Dear girls,

"The secret isn’t to find someone you love spending time with - I love spending time with a lot of people. The secret isn’t to find someone that you find attractive - I find a lot of people attractive for many different reasons. The secret isn’t to find someone who is nice - there are tons of nice people in the world. The secret is to find someone who wants exactly what you want. Someone who is ready to give you all they’ve got, and in return be ready to accept all the love you have to give. The world is filled with people in relationship of “loves you more” & “I have to act mean so they will like me back” or “I am just not ready.” Please do not waste any more of your precious time. You are an amazing creature. You deserve to be loved until your insides melt. Don’t give up on all the things you want. When you meet the right person you will have zero doubt in your mind. Zero."

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