It's been a year now but when I still hear your name, my heart beats a little faster, all those memories come rushing to my head, my heart sinks and all it could do is ask my mind, "Will I be able to see him again, ever?" And I always hope my heart says yes! But it doesn't, for it knows I have lost him long back. He's gone to a place where I am restricted, he is happy and I am happy too seeing him happy!
But I do spend my nights craving to hear his voice, remembering our song, listening to his favourite songs, reading our messages, reminiscing those times when we were so close.
But when I open my eyes, I realise that was all my past and now I have to live in my present without him, my throat shrinks, it becomes hard to swallow, heart misses a beat, eyes not ready to blink, mind not ready to accept the reality.
I never hope to see you back in my life again because I know there's someone else who's making you more happy and now my heart hurts a little less than it used to or may be am so habituated that it does not aches any more. Days I feel I have learnt to live without but there are nights that makes me go restless.